Behind the Writing

A behind the scenes look at what was really going on while I was writing the books, offering insight into the moments, messes, and mindset that shaped each page.

My Progressive Tone Shift

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My Progressive Tone Shift

I want to share something I’ve discovered about my own writing that readers often pick up on, even if they can’t quite put their finger on what it is. I call it my “Progressive Tone Shift,” and it’s become a signature element in all my books, especially my latest, “Died a Little Inside.”

How I Stumbled Upon This Approach

I didn’t start out with some master plan to create a sophisticated writing technique. I noticed it in my last few books almost by accident. When I went back and read my completed manuscripts, I saw a pattern: my early chapters had this raw, sometimes unfiltered energy to them. There was more profanity, shorter sentences, and an urgency in the writing. By the end of the books, my tone had naturally evolved into something more measured, reflective, and hopeful.

The Emotional Cost of Writing Truth

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The Emotional Cost of Writing Truth: Behind “The Inheritance of Patterns”

When people ask me about writing The Inheritance of Patterns, they often focus on the technical aspects—the structure, the voice, the publishing process. What few understand is the invisible toll that comes with excavating your deepest wounds and displaying them on the page for strangers to examine.

Reopening Old Wounds

There’s a profound difference between having processed trauma in therapy and deliberately reopening those wounds day after day at the keyboard. Each morning, I’d sit down to write about moments I’d spent decades trying to heal from—the emotional volatility in my childhood home, the belt buckle marks on my brother’s skin, the paper bag “gunshot” my father used as psychological manipulation while I watched. These weren’t just stories I was telling; they were experiences I had to re-enter to write authentically.

Some days, I’d finish a writing session and find myself shaking, disoriented, caught between 2023 and 1977. My nervous system couldn’t always distinguish between recounting trauma and reliving it. There were weeks when I could only write for an hour before needing to stop, when the emotional backdraft became too intense to continue.

What Nobody Tells You About Writing a Trauma Book

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What Nobody Tells You About Writing a Trauma Book

When I began writing “The Inheritance of Patterns,” I naively imagined the process would be challenging but ultimately cathartic—painful excavation followed by liberating release. I’d dig up the memories, examine the patterns, organize them neatly on the page, and emerge lighter for having shared them.

The Method in My Madness

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The Method in My Madness: How I Structured “The Inheritance of Patterns”

When people hear I’ve written a book about trauma, they often assume it’s just an emotional dump—raw feelings splattered on the page with no particular organization. The reality couldn’t be more different.

The Words That Changed Everything

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Language as Liberation in “The Inheritance of Patterns”

The right words can save your life. I mean that literally.

When I was at my lowest point—after discovering my wife’s affair on my 50th birthday, contemplating ending my existence because the pain was unbearable—it wasn’t medication or distraction that pulled me back from the edge. It was finding precise language for what was happening to me.

Kidnapping to Survival, Why I Wrote Inheritance of Patterns

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Why I Had to Write “The Inheritance of Patterns”

There are books you choose to write, and then there are books that demand to be written. “The Inheritance of Patterns” falls firmly in the second category.

I never planned to expose the most painful parts of my life to strangers. I never intended to dissect my childhood trauma on paper, to analyze how being kidnapped from my biological father at age two set the stage for decades of dysfunctional relationships. Who the hell wants to do that?

But here’s the thing about patterns that control your life from the shadows—they don’t stop destroying things just because you refuse to look at them.

My Unlikely Writing Journey

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From IT Manager to Author

Most authors have some romantic origin story about scribbling stories since childhood or always dreaming of seeing their name on a book cover. That’s not me. For most of my life, I was the IT guy—the person businesses called when systems crashed, not when they needed emotional insights.

The Four Phases of Trauma

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The Four Phases of Trauma Healing Nobody Tells You About

Most trauma recovery resources present healing as either a linear five-step process with a neat conclusion or an endless journey with no real milestones. Neither matches the reality I’ve experienced and observed in others.

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